075 ; Cherish

It's 2.12am currently.

I can't get to sleep. 'm feeling melancholy. (Just like the monkey above...) A feeling which I've never felt for a long time. The feeling of apprehension is overwhelming. I mean really overwhelming. When was the last time I felt this afraid, I do not remember.

I have the impulse to go out to take a walk, to take a breather. At this hour ? Not likely. Get rid of the feeling, get rid of the feeling. Have the urge to sms someone to talk to, so as to divert my attention. Who would be awake at 2+am ? ):

Never felt this bad before... Never never..

Why are there so many happenings in the December ? It happens this, it happens that. Life is full of challenges. Not everything will go by the way we want it to be. I do not wish for a luxurious life. All I wanted is a simple and happy life, with everyone being pink in health.

December will be a completely different life. As life poses a challenge to you, face it instead of escaping from it. Easier said than done. The last time I stayed over at Grandma's house together with my mom was years ago. I don't remember what was the reason for it. The next time I am going to stay at Grandma's house would be soon, yet I chose not to.

Very much I want to, but at the same time I didn't want to. Paradoxical. :/ Seriously, I could barely imagine me being alone at home for fortnight or probably more. Brother is serving National Service. Daddy is working. Mommy would be staying at Grandma's house. I would be left alone at home for the whole day till Daddy returns from work or even when he returns from badminton. This is life eh ?

Two weeks which is tantamount to fourteen days. It might be long to several or might be short to several. To each his own, different perspective. Household chores, it's time. Hahaha. Brother better not go for any field camp during that period or else he is going to get it from me ! :P

Life isn't that bad. 'm just going to learn to live in a different way. :) (Ah, finally a positive smiley I see.)

I hope that she gets better.
I hope that she stays strong.
I hope that she won't be so pessimistic.
I hope that she would have the courage that day.
I hope that everything will proceed smoothly on the particular day.
Because I believe everything will proceed fine and well. I believe, I believe, I believe. :)
Nothing gets tougher than this. Even if it does, I am all well to face it.

Life isn't that bad after all.

This sounds totally different from the above paragraphs till the current one I am typing. Let it out let it out. (Tears do the trick !)

This is me ! Yes !