Seven ; Darkest pit

Last night was the other worst night.

When you close your eyes, you see people chasing after you. When you open your eyes, trying to escape from the dreams, to no avail. You see people chasing after you, still. I abhor this kind of things to happen. Yet, I can't do anything to it. D:

Close eyes, open eyes, everything before your eyes are still precisely the same.
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Palpitating hearts make me miserable. Who knows I may just ... *touchwood* So sorry, have been reading newspaper leading me to those thinkings.
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I fear PE lessons. I've phobia of balls. I really do. D:
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I fear Physics lessons. As though I'm gonna have some heart attack at any time. I really fear Physics lessons. So much so that I really wish I could just drop both Sciences ! D:
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I am laughing like HAHAHA which has a hidden reason behind it. What am I doing ?
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I don't wish to attend school. I really don't wish to. I've nothing to look forward to, except for dismissal time. :/
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Can my brother don't serve NS ? Home will be bored and I can never imagine how my life will be when he is not around. I will miss him, I seriously do. (Or else when I was much younger, I wouldn't cry looking for him when he's in school having lessons.) D:








Shedding tears shedding tears...
I'm afraid. I'm frightened.
What's with all those smiles and laughters ?